The main simple purpose of the blog was to better understand yourself and to log your experiences you went through that day.
It seems I have no longer use for the blog, My only regrets now is that are some things that are different between me and some people, I wish that it was not like that but under the circumstances.... there really is nothing i can do now.
It was easier then I thought to find happiness, I was just looking in the wrong place as so many people had told me before. I'm happy with the way it has all turned out, I don't think i would change anything about my last yew months at the academy. It seems that special person was easier to find outside the Academy, with her my past, history, what others think of me, non of it matters.
The conclusion of my time at Francis Combe Academy is that regardless of what happens... ha it can always be allot worse
Luke Stefan Hope Francis Combe Academy 2005-2010
" Hope Never dies "
Monday, 10 May 2010
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
110%
if something is worth having
If something is worth doing
then its worth working for...
Were almost there people
just hold on that little bit
longer
If something is worth doing
then its worth working for...
Were almost there people
just hold on that little bit
longer
Monday, 26 April 2010
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
Heron Blue
Your world can end in the blink of an eye...
The walls you had built fall around you
That happily ever after you tried so hard for
Just another failure...
When such an event takes place, there is no seeing it
There is no stopping it
All you can do is mentally prepare yourself for it
and take comfort in knowing that it all happened for
a reason
Because the end of something old...
is the beginning of something new
Everything happens for a reason, and That reason wont become clear straight away
But there is always a reason....
Maybe I have found what I have been looking for...
The walls you had built fall around you
That happily ever after you tried so hard for
Just another failure...
When such an event takes place, there is no seeing it
There is no stopping it
All you can do is mentally prepare yourself for it
and take comfort in knowing that it all happened for
a reason
Because the end of something old...
is the beginning of something new
Everything happens for a reason, and That reason wont become clear straight away
But there is always a reason....
Maybe I have found what I have been looking for...
Sunday, 18 April 2010
Saturday, 17 April 2010
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
Gears
I know It may seem silly to others or pointless, but to me....
Its apart of a time that was good for me
Its a symbol
It represents
a better time
a fun time
To me its a sign
Maybe its a start of something new
It put a smile on my face again
To me its not just a game
Its apart of me that died along time ago
I'm different now
But It's funny how it can still bring me
Joy
If only I can rebuild the life I once had
before the soul crushing experiences
I'v become ..... heartless :(
Its apart of a time that was good for me
Its a symbol
It represents
a better time
a fun time
To me its a sign
Maybe its a start of something new
It put a smile on my face again
To me its not just a game
Its apart of me that died along time ago
I'm different now
But It's funny how it can still bring me
Joy
If only I can rebuild the life I once had
before the soul crushing experiences
I'v become ..... heartless :(
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
Sunshine......
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
I ain't happy, I'm feelin' glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long the future is comin' on,
It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on, It's comin' on
Monday, 5 April 2010
Sunday, 4 April 2010
Saturday, 3 April 2010
Platform 125 (2)
Once again the train came to a halt at the station in town, Louis and Oscar departed and began their walk into town, so where to first? Asked Louis, I don’t know that’s why I brought you; you’re meant to know where to look first. Ok what’s your limit here? Louis asked impatiently, you spend enough on that girl as it is without buying her some all expensive car or something. I do not! Snapped Oscar; I like to buy little things every now and then to keep her happy. Your such a Twat, Louis walked ahead, he stood outside the Mr fungi’s rice bowl, why not take her out somewhere nice? Oscar ignored him, Hey how about that? He said with his face pressed up against the glass of a shop window. Great jewellery Louis said sarcastically, how much? Oscar turned to face him with a grim expression on his face. Dude its one hundred and eighty, way out of my price range. Let me see? Louis barged Oscar out the way. The necklace was gold, small and didn’t look like it weight every much, the golden heart was attached by a chain of small golden balls, and in the centre of the heart was a blood red Rudy cut to the shape of the heart it centred in.
Wow that is nice exclaimed Louis, but a bit much don’t you think? Nothings to good for my baby girl Oscar Murmured…
What you say? Oh nothing Oscar replied, listen you go wait in that café for a sec I’ll see if I can haggle the shop keeper. You’re not smart enough to Haggle Louis interrupted, Please Oscar begged; just give me ten minutes with him. Louis was silent for a moment before giving in and sighing, fine ten minutes come get me when you’re…. Oscar had already left and was in front of the counter. I’m amazed his mum let him have a wallet, let alone but money in it Louis said to himself before leaving the pathetic scene to get a coffee.
Wow that is nice exclaimed Louis, but a bit much don’t you think? Nothings to good for my baby girl Oscar Murmured…
What you say? Oh nothing Oscar replied, listen you go wait in that café for a sec I’ll see if I can haggle the shop keeper. You’re not smart enough to Haggle Louis interrupted, Please Oscar begged; just give me ten minutes with him. Louis was silent for a moment before giving in and sighing, fine ten minutes come get me when you’re…. Oscar had already left and was in front of the counter. I’m amazed his mum let him have a wallet, let alone but money in it Louis said to himself before leaving the pathetic scene to get a coffee.
Friday, 2 April 2010
Platform 125
“Revenge Like a ghost, it consumes everyone it touches”
The Platform as expected was empty; no one tends to use the train on a Sunday Morning. The grey concrete was almost symmetrical to the sky; the dull environment was enough to suck the life out of anyone who used the platform that day. The bench that rested in the middle of the platform seemed strangely out of place, it didn’t belong there. The wooden fence that surrounded the Platform walkway forced anyone who uses it towards the platform, no turning back.
Platform 215 the only way in and out of town that doesn’t involve a long two hour walk, the 10: 15 train was on time as it always was; slowly it came to a halt perfectly next to the platform, leaving only a small gap in which passengers stepped over to reach the platform from the train. The sound of heavy footsteps echoed around the platform, breaking the silents. Two boys sprinted up the walkway in an attempted not to miss the train. The boys managed to squeeze through the doorway before they closed shut behind them. They sat opposite one another, a small table between them both.
The taller boy, Louis ran his hand though his already messy hair then began to relax into the blue sponge of the chair. The other boy Oscar remained tense and kept his gaze on Louis, he was smaller than Louis but made up for it in his built. He was unsettled and played with his bracelet to comfort him. “Would you relax, we made it on the train didn’t we” Louis voiced broke Oscar’s concentration on his bracelet. “No thanks to you we could have missed it, but you wouldn’t get up in time” Oscar said defensively. Louis smirked then focused his attention out the window at the scenes rushing by. You got any idea what you’re going to get her yet? Asked Louis, Not a clue replied Oscar, hey thanks for coming with me today man, your better at this crap then I am, no problem I didn’t have any plans for today anyway. The two boys fell silent for the remainder of the journey, Louis continued to stare out the window and Oscar went back to fiddling with his bracelet.
The Platform as expected was empty; no one tends to use the train on a Sunday Morning. The grey concrete was almost symmetrical to the sky; the dull environment was enough to suck the life out of anyone who used the platform that day. The bench that rested in the middle of the platform seemed strangely out of place, it didn’t belong there. The wooden fence that surrounded the Platform walkway forced anyone who uses it towards the platform, no turning back.
Platform 215 the only way in and out of town that doesn’t involve a long two hour walk, the 10: 15 train was on time as it always was; slowly it came to a halt perfectly next to the platform, leaving only a small gap in which passengers stepped over to reach the platform from the train. The sound of heavy footsteps echoed around the platform, breaking the silents. Two boys sprinted up the walkway in an attempted not to miss the train. The boys managed to squeeze through the doorway before they closed shut behind them. They sat opposite one another, a small table between them both.
The taller boy, Louis ran his hand though his already messy hair then began to relax into the blue sponge of the chair. The other boy Oscar remained tense and kept his gaze on Louis, he was smaller than Louis but made up for it in his built. He was unsettled and played with his bracelet to comfort him. “Would you relax, we made it on the train didn’t we” Louis voiced broke Oscar’s concentration on his bracelet. “No thanks to you we could have missed it, but you wouldn’t get up in time” Oscar said defensively. Louis smirked then focused his attention out the window at the scenes rushing by. You got any idea what you’re going to get her yet? Asked Louis, Not a clue replied Oscar, hey thanks for coming with me today man, your better at this crap then I am, no problem I didn’t have any plans for today anyway. The two boys fell silent for the remainder of the journey, Louis continued to stare out the window and Oscar went back to fiddling with his bracelet.
Thursday, 1 April 2010
word for word
Words
You can write whatever you want on your Blog
But it can never help people to understand how
you feel
I ask myself if there is a real point to this, its only the same three
or four people who read it, and lets be honest its the ony reason you write
these blogs, is becuase you want them four or so people to notice you
Fact is they are always there, I am always there, if you can't see me or not
I'm always watching over you guys, Otherwise who else will you cry on right?
And to be honest I love it,
Gives me a sense Of importants
Makes me feel good that I can make others feel good just like that.
Fact is I dont use this blog for what I am meant too
I want you guys to read my blog, just as much as you want everyone else too
I need you guys, but not as in i need you around me all the time, I need you guys to need me. Without you guys I have no reason to be, theres no need for Hope if no one is in need of it.
I can tell that times wont always be easy, and I plan to be there for whoever, whenever for whatever reason, becuase that what I do, and I love it
Hope Never Dies
You can write whatever you want on your Blog
But it can never help people to understand how
you feel
I ask myself if there is a real point to this, its only the same three
or four people who read it, and lets be honest its the ony reason you write
these blogs, is becuase you want them four or so people to notice you
Fact is they are always there, I am always there, if you can't see me or not
I'm always watching over you guys, Otherwise who else will you cry on right?
And to be honest I love it,
Gives me a sense Of importants
Makes me feel good that I can make others feel good just like that.
Fact is I dont use this blog for what I am meant too
I want you guys to read my blog, just as much as you want everyone else too
I need you guys, but not as in i need you around me all the time, I need you guys to need me. Without you guys I have no reason to be, theres no need for Hope if no one is in need of it.
I can tell that times wont always be easy, and I plan to be there for whoever, whenever for whatever reason, becuase that what I do, and I love it
Hope Never Dies
Wednesday, 31 March 2010
calm the fuck down
I think my only downfall would be that I am
" Human "
I can see the chaos before it hits,
I sense the destruction
the pain
One day the world will turn to me and cry "help us"
and I will whisper
" No "
You dont need me now, but you will do....
Hope Never Dies
" Human "
I can see the chaos before it hits,
I sense the destruction
the pain
One day the world will turn to me and cry "help us"
and I will whisper
" No "
You dont need me now, but you will do....
Hope Never Dies
Tuesday, 30 March 2010
somebodys There
"When my mind stops thinking,
My eyes stop blinking,
I hope
Somebodys there."
Life's made of little battles,
but there is always a way out,
always some one there to help if it gets to much...
Hope I will always have that
"And my heart stops beating
and my lungs stop breathing
in air,
I hope somebody cares"...
I'm not ready to lose you yet, you need to change your life style, our family still needs you...
My eyes stop blinking,
I hope
Somebodys there."
Life's made of little battles,
but there is always a way out,
always some one there to help if it gets to much...
Hope I will always have that
"And my heart stops beating
and my lungs stop breathing
in air,
I hope somebody cares"...
I'm not ready to lose you yet, you need to change your life style, our family still needs you...
Monday, 29 March 2010
Door ways
When One door Closes I sure as hell make myself a new one...
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BABY YEAH HA HA IN YOUR FACE WORLD
SUCK IT CLOSED DOOR
I GOT IN WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MY LIFE IS GOING SOME WHERE
HA HA FRANCIS COMBE ACADEMY CAN KISS MY WHITE ASS GOODBYE
PS
HA HA FUCK YOU FRANCIS COMBE IM OUTTA HERE
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
JEFF IF YOU GET INTO COLLEAGE GRANNY GIVES YOU BEERS ITS AWSOME
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BABY YEAH HA HA IN YOUR FACE WORLD
SUCK IT CLOSED DOOR
I GOT IN WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MY LIFE IS GOING SOME WHERE
HA HA FRANCIS COMBE ACADEMY CAN KISS MY WHITE ASS GOODBYE
PS
HA HA FUCK YOU FRANCIS COMBE IM OUTTA HERE
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
JEFF IF YOU GET INTO COLLEAGE GRANNY GIVES YOU BEERS ITS AWSOME
Friday, 26 March 2010
Hello My name is fuck you
Xbox live = 32 friends
Faceook= 147 friends
MSN = 71 friends
Why is it I have all these friends and yet I still feel so alone.
I find myself spending my nights playing battlefield by myself, no one to back me up or watch my flank, just me. Or how I will go on facebook and just stare at my blank profile, or how about I go on MSN and have a 5 minuet conversation with maybe one or two people....
The fact is disagree with me if you will but the reason I feel alone, is becuase I am, I didnt put myself in the isolated world i now live, I had no where else to go. Now you can all get pissy with me, but you couldnt possible understand how i feel now could you. so if your gonna scream at me I ask this first....
put yourself in my shoes for a sec, take a moment and pretend you are me....
Just because I'm not alone dont mean I dont feel that way.
Faceook= 147 friends
MSN = 71 friends
Why is it I have all these friends and yet I still feel so alone.
I find myself spending my nights playing battlefield by myself, no one to back me up or watch my flank, just me. Or how I will go on facebook and just stare at my blank profile, or how about I go on MSN and have a 5 minuet conversation with maybe one or two people....
The fact is disagree with me if you will but the reason I feel alone, is becuase I am, I didnt put myself in the isolated world i now live, I had no where else to go. Now you can all get pissy with me, but you couldnt possible understand how i feel now could you. so if your gonna scream at me I ask this first....
put yourself in my shoes for a sec, take a moment and pretend you are me....
Just because I'm not alone dont mean I dont feel that way.
Allow that Im pissed
Sorry I'v been moody and depressed, but you know i just dont have the energy to be happy anymore, I dont really have much to smile about with all the worries i have at the moment, bear with me ok becuase just becuase you lot are all happy dont mean the whole fucking world has to be full of sunshine ok...
As for you, and you know who you are
Shut The Fuck Up
As for you, and you know who you are
Shut The Fuck Up
Thursday, 25 March 2010
RedvsBlue
You dont hate a person becuase of their skin, or becuase of thier hair
You dont judge a person by how they look
Becuase it doesnt matter if your Red or your Blue
You hate some becuase you have to see them everyday of your life, and you cant stand the way they act or how they treat others, you dislike someone for how they are not who they are.
I made my choice of side, I still consider wether or not it was the right side, i picked my colour but i dont think it matters anymore.... to be honest
I look good in Blue
Roses are red
and Voilets are blue
Its them against us
And me against you
Hope Never Dies
You dont judge a person by how they look
Becuase it doesnt matter if your Red or your Blue
You hate some becuase you have to see them everyday of your life, and you cant stand the way they act or how they treat others, you dislike someone for how they are not who they are.
I made my choice of side, I still consider wether or not it was the right side, i picked my colour but i dont think it matters anymore.... to be honest
I look good in Blue
Roses are red
and Voilets are blue
Its them against us
And me against you
Hope Never Dies
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
Monday, 22 March 2010
Sunday, 21 March 2010
Army of Two
Me and you against the world
This army of Two
I dont know how Im gonna get along without you, but I guess I'll have to get used to it
But we can still kick ass Untill then....
Call this Number for a goodtime
0155 hopeline
Hope Never Dies
This army of Two
I dont know how Im gonna get along without you, but I guess I'll have to get used to it
But we can still kick ass Untill then....
Call this Number for a goodtime
0155 hopeline
Hope Never Dies
Saturday, 20 March 2010
Shove a gerbil in your ass Through a tube
End Of another shitty week, I hope my next one will be alot better...
Thanks for everything...
Shove un hámster en el culo por un tubo :D
Every moment in my life, every choice I have made has lead me to this one moment in time, Shame I can not share it with all of you.
If you feel like getting drunk and having sex please call this number
01555 Hopeline >
Hope Never dies
Thanks for everything...
Shove un hámster en el culo por un tubo :D
Every moment in my life, every choice I have made has lead me to this one moment in time, Shame I can not share it with all of you.
If you feel like getting drunk and having sex please call this number
01555 Hopeline >
Hope Never dies
Friday, 19 March 2010
Thursday, 18 March 2010
Like I'm reaching out for you...
I cant rest easy knowing that I'll be one tough act to follow, I only wish i knew what it was I had to do now, be nice if i could be someone else for a day...
"Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you"
Here today, gone tomorrow....
Hope never dies
"Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you"
Here today, gone tomorrow....
Hope never dies
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
AM who I AM
I'm Sorry i snapped at you, to be honest i find you a little annoying and today I just didn't have the patience for it all today, its not really an excuse, but its a reason i guess.
Its just who we are at the end of the day, your a little annoying and I'm an asshole... would make a great sitcom, we just have to accept who we are and live with it.
Hope never dies
Its just who we are at the end of the day, your a little annoying and I'm an asshole... would make a great sitcom, we just have to accept who we are and live with it.
Hope never dies
Tuesday, 16 March 2010
Without me
when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back......
Never look back, never forget, carry on
Never regret
I see the a future
Its beautiful...
Hope never Dies...
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back......
Never look back, never forget, carry on
Never regret
I see the a future
Its beautiful...
Hope never Dies...
Monday, 15 March 2010
H.O.P.E
Who am I?
The question that keeps me up at night
Why am I here, what I do next...
I didnt want to do it anymore, I didnt want to hear it, But i dont have a choice...
My destiny is already chosen for me, as if my fate...
It still scares me how much you guys really do need me, it hurt me to know that i cant live without you guys either.
But its the same old crap everyday, I can almost see what is going to happen, I dont believe the words you speak becuase they mean something different to me then they do to you, its all si pointless
I love you, what the fuck does that mean because non of you know, you say it to everyone, I dont like to hear it, its an insult to me... it makes me sick
all your problems are mine, if I want them or not there mine... I accecpt the responsiabilty that goes along with them. I will always be here for you, that little voice in your head is me, always will be...
Life will always bring new challenges, everday risks you must take for a shot of happiness, but dont believe for a second that it will last forever, becuase it wont.
I know who I am I'm Luke Hope, and I'm the Only Hope you got, so remember that becuase I wont always be around forever...
One day you will cry out for help..... And I will reply
No.....
The question that keeps me up at night
Why am I here, what I do next...
I didnt want to do it anymore, I didnt want to hear it, But i dont have a choice...
My destiny is already chosen for me, as if my fate...
It still scares me how much you guys really do need me, it hurt me to know that i cant live without you guys either.
But its the same old crap everyday, I can almost see what is going to happen, I dont believe the words you speak becuase they mean something different to me then they do to you, its all si pointless
I love you, what the fuck does that mean because non of you know, you say it to everyone, I dont like to hear it, its an insult to me... it makes me sick
all your problems are mine, if I want them or not there mine... I accecpt the responsiabilty that goes along with them. I will always be here for you, that little voice in your head is me, always will be...
Life will always bring new challenges, everday risks you must take for a shot of happiness, but dont believe for a second that it will last forever, becuase it wont.
I know who I am I'm Luke Hope, and I'm the Only Hope you got, so remember that becuase I wont always be around forever...
One day you will cry out for help..... And I will reply
No.....
Saturday, 13 March 2010
Aint Over till I say it Is !!!
No ammo
No Intel
No renforcments....
No problem
In the end I always win, you guys might have alot of problems and things might look down right now, but it would be a whole lot dam better if you stopped looking at the floor and glanced at the stars once in a while
No Intel
No renforcments....
No problem
In the end I always win, you guys might have alot of problems and things might look down right now, but it would be a whole lot dam better if you stopped looking at the floor and glanced at the stars once in a while
Friday, 12 March 2010
-1
Its a nice feeling that althought you all need help, there is someone there for all of you, I still worry about you guys, course I will... but your in good hands
But still as I look out of the window of my ict classroom and watch as the rain pounds against the glass, a storms coming, but it quickly fades as soon as it started, I look for a rainbow...
But find nothing....
But still as I look out of the window of my ict classroom and watch as the rain pounds against the glass, a storms coming, but it quickly fades as soon as it started, I look for a rainbow...
But find nothing....
Thursday, 11 March 2010
before Part B
I have alot of regrets, ghost that haunt me, but never will i affect how i live my life now....
I want freedom and I want to be able to come and go as i please, you guys seem to be happy with that, I want you guys to understand how care free and relaxed my mind was today, no worrying nothing on my mind, I just had fun... once again things are looking up for me and this time its gonna stay that way.
So if you see me in this happy free minded mood, leave me that way, hug me and join in with a smile on your face, times running out and we wont be able to enjoy what we have now much longer, so why fight it go fucking nuts, I am...
If you need someone to talk to or help with something best you ask someone else, I'm on hoilday :D
I want freedom and I want to be able to come and go as i please, you guys seem to be happy with that, I want you guys to understand how care free and relaxed my mind was today, no worrying nothing on my mind, I just had fun... once again things are looking up for me and this time its gonna stay that way.
So if you see me in this happy free minded mood, leave me that way, hug me and join in with a smile on your face, times running out and we wont be able to enjoy what we have now much longer, so why fight it go fucking nuts, I am...
If you need someone to talk to or help with something best you ask someone else, I'm on hoilday :D
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Sims was a virus
New postive out look on life, but before i go on I have to say
Why is it I get stuck with the friends who dont have really hot sisters, or cusins who live really close to me!!! ahhh sucks
but owell life goes on
and can someone tell me who these strange people are adding me on facebook, I'm up for meeting new people but who the fuck are you
Why is it I get stuck with the friends who dont have really hot sisters, or cusins who live really close to me!!! ahhh sucks
but owell life goes on
and can someone tell me who these strange people are adding me on facebook, I'm up for meeting new people but who the fuck are you
Sunday, 7 March 2010
tomorrow never dies
goodbye
maybe we will cross paths again, hopefully you guys will be more mature and then we can catch up, but being with you is killing me slowly...
sorry but im doing whats best for me for once, if you was the friend you keep saying you are, your understand and let me do this alone.
I wont forget, I just wont hurt anymore
Luke x
maybe we will cross paths again, hopefully you guys will be more mature and then we can catch up, but being with you is killing me slowly...
sorry but im doing whats best for me for once, if you was the friend you keep saying you are, your understand and let me do this alone.
I wont forget, I just wont hurt anymore
Luke x
Friday, 5 March 2010
pretender
Look forget whatever i said, i cant be asked to fight with you, so just carry on as normal like we always do. i didnt expect you to understand or to even consider it, so why should i waste my breath your right im wrong always the fucking way. so yeah lets just carry on being friends and everyone else benifits from it and if im unhappy or hurt, il keep it inside, becuase who gives a shit what i think right?
Lets just be nice tomorrow becuase its about claire tomorrow and not any other problems we all might have.
Lets just be nice tomorrow becuase its about claire tomorrow and not any other problems we all might have.
Thursday, 4 March 2010
Mr. fuck you
I'm not ready to let you two back into my life, considering it was you two who destoryed it in the first place. I cant trust you two with the repsoniablity of being my friend. There are people who do need me as a friend and they come first, not some silly little girls who dont take life sersiously...
Im glad that you feel you can come to me anytime man, I'v never seen or heard you that way and it was all new to me, it scared me :/ I cant promise you things will get better, But when your with someone like me i can make sure your time ahead wont be so bad.
I dont know what i did in the past life, but it must have been something silly, if my friends cant make things even a little bit easier for me. it was only 12 hours ago i told you i expected you to let me down and guess what you do... you tell someone something completelty wrong and get me in trouble, I'm starting to thing you guys are trying to kill us all of slowy or something becuase so far you guys have just made things so hard for us...
we need people who are gonna be there for us when we are hurt, or need a hug, instead you take and take what we give and return nothing, why must we try so hard as your friends and get nothing in return...
walk a mile in our shoes and see the world differently...
feel our pain
hear our thoughts
share our experinces
Im glad that you feel you can come to me anytime man, I'v never seen or heard you that way and it was all new to me, it scared me :/ I cant promise you things will get better, But when your with someone like me i can make sure your time ahead wont be so bad.
I dont know what i did in the past life, but it must have been something silly, if my friends cant make things even a little bit easier for me. it was only 12 hours ago i told you i expected you to let me down and guess what you do... you tell someone something completelty wrong and get me in trouble, I'm starting to thing you guys are trying to kill us all of slowy or something becuase so far you guys have just made things so hard for us...
we need people who are gonna be there for us when we are hurt, or need a hug, instead you take and take what we give and return nothing, why must we try so hard as your friends and get nothing in return...
walk a mile in our shoes and see the world differently...
feel our pain
hear our thoughts
share our experinces
Wednesday, 3 March 2010
Sing for the moment
You know what gets me, you complain that you dont fit in, well thats becuase you dont try, becuase you want everyone to feel for you...
You know what pisses me of the most, I try so hard to make sure your happy, that your not alone or left out, but its not good enought is it, Im not good enought am I. becuase you would rather have some one else with you, I stayed with you when no one else would, but thats not enough for you. its fine dont worry i get the message. I try so hard for you but you just dont give a shit do you.
Im sick of worry about you, caring for you, listening to you, becuase you dont care.. would you even notice if i was gone, would you even care
well im sorry im not ollie, or jeff, or sian or claire, but you know im the best you got..... had Im done. wh should i promise I would never leave you, if you can replace me or forget me in a heartbeat. so you dont have to worry about me caring to much, or looking after you
Because I wont
You know what pisses me of the most, I try so hard to make sure your happy, that your not alone or left out, but its not good enought is it, Im not good enought am I. becuase you would rather have some one else with you, I stayed with you when no one else would, but thats not enough for you. its fine dont worry i get the message. I try so hard for you but you just dont give a shit do you.
Im sick of worry about you, caring for you, listening to you, becuase you dont care.. would you even notice if i was gone, would you even care
well im sorry im not ollie, or jeff, or sian or claire, but you know im the best you got..... had Im done. wh should i promise I would never leave you, if you can replace me or forget me in a heartbeat. so you dont have to worry about me caring to much, or looking after you
Because I wont
Saturday, 27 February 2010
Drop the world
Life isnt fair, but we expect it to give us a break once in a while, and sometimes it does. I hate the world, I hate the way it is, the way we have to act to try to fit in.
It hurts but i never show, the pain your never know, if only you can see how lonly and how cold... My backs agaisnt the wall, when it all gets to much I stand up and scream just fuck em al
It hurts but i never show, the pain your never know, if only you can see how lonly and how cold... My backs agaisnt the wall, when it all gets to much I stand up and scream just fuck em al
Friday, 26 February 2010
sweet child of mine
Men are not made of glass, but our hearts break just as easy, i dont care if you dont like to listen to what i say, but someone has to break the cicle. I dont plan to let you two back into my life, not this time... I am in control this time.
Girls are silly and imature, I see through your little game and its not gonna work, I picked my side a long time ago and I plan to stay there...
take this haters...
Girls are silly and imature, I see through your little game and its not gonna work, I picked my side a long time ago and I plan to stay there...
take this haters...
Thursday, 25 February 2010
not as brave as you were at the start
With each growing day nothing seems to improve, our lifes are like a ever ending circle, things seem to be repeating themselves again. We are spilting, its becomeing harder and harder to keep what we had together.
I myself find it hard to reach out to you, when you feel this bad nothing I can say or do to make it better, you want all the wrong things for the wrong reasons, so much so that you dont care what it takes to get them. I'm sick of concerning myself with the problems of other people, yet still i continue to do it, I ask myself why but have no answer in return, perpaps this must be what love is, when your so close to someone that you cant help but care from them regradless of how stupid the problem or how hard it is for you to deal with it...
Its gonna be hard to be around you both when i know your not happy, your both foolish and hurts me to see you this way.
I myself find it hard to reach out to you, when you feel this bad nothing I can say or do to make it better, you want all the wrong things for the wrong reasons, so much so that you dont care what it takes to get them. I'm sick of concerning myself with the problems of other people, yet still i continue to do it, I ask myself why but have no answer in return, perpaps this must be what love is, when your so close to someone that you cant help but care from them regradless of how stupid the problem or how hard it is for you to deal with it...
Its gonna be hard to be around you both when i know your not happy, your both foolish and hurts me to see you this way.
Wednesday, 24 February 2010
war never changes
it has always amazed me that humanity has the abilty to servive almost any threat that comes our way.
In the environment we live in everyday is made up of little battles, but once the ball starts rolling its hard to get it to stop. things always seem bad at one time or another, but we always pull throught... becuase thats what we do, what we always have done. In a school like ours we have to enjoy even the smallest victory, and starting one day with a smile and ending it the same way is one of the best victorys we can get around here.
Things might look bad now but they always pick up we just have to stick together... not even earthquakes stop us
In the environment we live in everyday is made up of little battles, but once the ball starts rolling its hard to get it to stop. things always seem bad at one time or another, but we always pull throught... becuase thats what we do, what we always have done. In a school like ours we have to enjoy even the smallest victory, and starting one day with a smile and ending it the same way is one of the best victorys we can get around here.
Things might look bad now but they always pick up we just have to stick together... not even earthquakes stop us
Monday, 22 February 2010
first post fucking gay
You can wake up and say today is gonna be your lucky day....
but life always has them little ways of bringing you down, either you feel let down by your best friend, or the girl you love isnt talking to you, or like me you might have thrown your neck out first thing in the morning...
whatever the reason you have to remind yourself that thats life, its full of unexpected surprises, but at then end of the day we just have to get on with it and carry on, and just hope that tomorrow will be a brighter day.
but life always has them little ways of bringing you down, either you feel let down by your best friend, or the girl you love isnt talking to you, or like me you might have thrown your neck out first thing in the morning...
whatever the reason you have to remind yourself that thats life, its full of unexpected surprises, but at then end of the day we just have to get on with it and carry on, and just hope that tomorrow will be a brighter day.
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